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I dunno what to write ... I just want to write something ..

2006-05-02T02:12:00.001+05:30

I think I get too easily influenced by movies/TV/books and the likes ... I mean .. one day I watch Gladiator .. and I want to go back in time and be a soldier who fights with mighty swords ... some time later I am reading about Mr. Richard Branson and his Virgin group of companies .. and I want to work on little business plans and become a business tycoon. Then I watch Coupling, which is a sitcom, somewhat like friends you can say ... and I want to be no one special .. I just want to lie around all day .. have a small happy life ... drink beer .. speak with a british accent ...etc. I see Godfather ... I want to be all powerful .. not a mafia , but really really powerful ... I watch Sarkar ... I even change my way of walking temporarily to something I think is a more powerful walk ... it sure felt powerful, I felt powerful ...Then I return to the book .. and I again want to be earning loads of money ...
I watch more films ... I go more paranoid ....
After some time I think I want to become a movie director.
That thought is not alien to my mind ... I have always wanted to become a director ... maybe only a play director earlier .. but a director ..
but I never gave it much thought ... all the job security and happy life, getting fat sitting confortable on my ass, all secure and everything, everything filled up in my mind that I guess one picks up sub-consciously through his life ... I never thought of taking any risk with my life before ...
But a part of getting influenced by all the media is that you pick up a lot of carelessness ... or you can say more risk taking ... and now I want to , well .. take some risks .. like trying direction for instance ...
And again .. I want to do an MBA .. sit on my comfortable ass and count loads of money ...
This decision making .. I can leave it for a while, for a year or so I guess ... but when you are sitting at home getting fucking bored ... every single thought is thought and re-thought. You can't help it ... if you don't want to think about it ... then you are actually thinking about it and thinking that I shouldn't be thinking about it, which is basically thinking about it.
What do I do ?
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Anyways ...
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Exam time ahead ...
Results came out today ... I am , as usual, amongst the last few people in my class ... and as usual .. the system and the crappy subjects are to be blamed ..
Think I'll write a song about the "System" some day .... and then me and my would-be band can perform it ... we may become famous you know...

But I don't think I want to become a rock star ...
I am pretty sure about this one, I think.

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2006-03-31T19:22:00.000+05:30

Hi ...
(Still out of ideas on how to start..)

Lots happening in my life these days ... well not a whole lot ... but reasonable amount of activity considering my otherwise monotonous routine. So where do I start ?

Indian Ocean performed in my college ...

Awesome. Actually ... their music is beyond awesome. And to see them live is like whole new heights of beyond-awesomeness. 2 hours of pure ecstacy ....
"Samay ki laal Aandhi ..."

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I had so much to write .... I thought it would be a mega post or something ... and now I can't remember anything ...
Wtf ...

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I am going off to Mumbai for two months this summer to do some training. Earlier another friend was going with me ... but now it's just me ... me in the big city ... maybe I'll get bored but I so desperately want to get away from my home right now that I accepted it and so .... whatever will be ... will be ...
So many things will be new there ... no 24-hour internet .. infact no computer at all ... no car ... lousy food... living in a hostel ... all will be new for me ... but I'm kinda looking forward to it ...
(I will have my iPod (..that I'll soon buy) .. )

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Seems like not much has been going on in my life after all .. I'm just plain excited about the Bombay thing ...
Whatever ...

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Here are some things I have been enojoying all this time ..

My Rating ****1/2 (Must see)
My Rating **** (Must see)
My Rating **** (Must see, if not already)
My Rating **1/2 (Don't see unless die hard Matthew Perry Fan)
My Rating ***** (You Kidding ? Collin Rocks !!)

Others were the sitcom 'Coupling' (good) and the book 'Runaway Jury' by John Grisham ... but I'm tired of searching for images ...

Anyway ... that is it for now ...

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2006-02-25T18:32:00.000+05:30

"How you doin' ??"
(Sorry ... totally out of ideas on how to strat a post)

So ... I have been busy for a while (for a change) ..

Ok ..

First ... I went to GIR (Great Indian Rock X) ... and man does it rock .... Here is a pic I clicked using my phone cam :

So we went to GIR and I had no fucking idea how awesome it could be until it started ... after that we left track of time ... Also I was kinda stoned (and it does feel like flying and all that anyone ever said) ... I had to try it once ... probably was the first and the last time ... but it was some experience. All the music and all the dope ..
Anyways ... The Superfuzz won the competition ... I think they were good ... but I liked Mantra and Acrid Semblance better. After that I downloaded loads of Indian Rock Bands' songs ... and man some of them are really good ...

What else ?
We had this technical fest (a fest for the engineering side of you) in our college .. and I lost every competition I took part in ... even the ones I was sure I'd win .. one hell of a bad luck run ...
After that there was this party to mark the end of the fest .. we went to this ok type looking pub ... but once inside we realized that it kicked major ass with its awesome sound system and everything ... so we danced and danced and my legs still hurt ... but it was great ...

What else ?
The return of Friends thingy that I mentioned in my last post seems to be true ... and man I'm too excited ... also there is this news that there'll be a new spinoff series starring all the three friends male characters ... which means ... that Matthew Perry will be back .... Wooo hoo ... It's called something like It's A Guy Thing .. Cheezy kinda name ... but Perry can make everything worth its watch ... man I simply loved his character in Friends ...

What else ?
I saw no new movie ... I read no new book .. I started reading Atlas Shrugged again .. from the point I had dropped it the last time ... it still does not interest me that much ... I think I'll read Fountainhead again ... now that's a book to be read any no. of times ...

What else ?
I'll be completing my third year in college this year which means that now I'll have to devote much more time to college than I have been all these three years ...
Also I'm kinda torn .. To do MBA or not to do MBA .. that is the question ...
In my ideal dream world ... I do an MBA... then join a big MNC ... in a few(4-5) years ... I quit as the CEO of the company to start my own venture .. I become the big business baron in no time .. then I start funding politics and then ultimately I join the politics myself .. Finally .. when I'm somewhat old .. I'll make a movie .. and that'll mark the the end of one sucessful life ... in the ideal dream world ..
But in this new dream that has been creeping on for a few days ... I continue in my field after engineering ... start my own venture ... and the rest of the story remains quite the same ...
So I'm torn ....
In reality I might ending up working in a software firm like TCS/Infosys or somewhere ..... but that is different and does not affect the ideal dream world ...

Anyways ... quite a long post now (compare it to my last one) ... so I'd leave it here ... next one in a month or so ....

As good as it gets ....

2006-01-25T22:02:00.000+05:30

I can't believe this .....
Wooo hooo .......

Pretty boring post .. but I had to write something ..

2006-01-08T16:14:00.000+05:30

Ok ... back ... atleast for this post , i.e.
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I have been thinking of blogging for quite some time now ... infact .. I never got off blogging actually ... still checked my blog once in a while for any comments .. and to my surprise ... people actually did stop by my blog ... even 2 months after I said goodbye ... Seriously .. I am touched .
A lot of times ... I thought that this or that would make such a good post ... but I never wrote anything ..
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So where have I been all this time ??
Well ... here and there .. (here , mainly ..)
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After the last time I blogged ... lets see ... first notable event I think was papers ... a royal screw always ...
Post papers ... I have been enjoying holidays .. sitting at home ...
What all did I do after papers .. ummm .... Ya ... I downloaded all the 10 seasons of Friends and saw them ... was totally hooked on to them ... and man were they good ... then I downloaded Joey .. which is a spinoff sitcom from friends .. not half as good though .. seen it, anyone ?
Then I read a couple of books .. lets see .. I have been hooked on to fantasy mainly .. I read the Hobbit and the three LOTR books ... awesome ... Then I read the Godfather ... awsome as well ... Then I read the 6 Harry Potter books (finally .. after ages of saying that I'll never read them ..) ... but they are really good actually ...
I saw loads of movies ... I saw Godfather 1 & 2 again ... Then ... Kill Bill 1 & 2 ... awesome movies I tell you .... Tarantino is too good .... then I saw This Spanish movie The Motorcycle Diaries ... another good one ... and last I saw a half of Fear and Lothing in Las Vegas ... couldn't watch rest of it ... Oh .. and I also saw this movie Lost in Translation ... pretty wierd movie actually ...
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And I went to this college trip to Dehradun ... really enjoyed there a lot ... also celebrated the New Year there ...
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Other things have been happening ... 'D' .. (the girl I had a huge crush on and told her so .... and who had said a 'What ?' in reply (means nothing happened between us) ... about a year back ...) ... well .. I dunno ... it's kinda wierd what is between us now .. I mean we talk and all ... but I really feel uncomfortable .... I dunno ... I have been giving it some thought lately ... anyways ...
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What else ? (Ah .. now I'm really back ..)
I gave up smoking on new year ... and finally smoked today ... (usual crap actually ... dunno why I still bother with it .. )
Colleges re-open tomorrow ... and after a long time , I am actually looking foreward to it ... but to say the truth .. I'm truly bored with engineering ... and its still one and a half years to go ...
I signed up for MBA enterance exam preperation classes .... Dunno how many exams I'll have to give my entire life ... seems like all that I have done these last 5 years is give exams ..
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Nothing else that I can think of right now ...
Pretty boring post, eh ? (I don't mind a 'yes' in the answer to that).

2005-10-02T23:21:00.000+05:30

Well ... it's been ages since I posted something here (more than a month ... this was not even imaginable when I started blogging you know) ... but anyways ... here goes another post ...

Well I don't know what to write exactly and have nothing in particular to write about ...
Anyways .. here are a few things ..
First ... a piece of advice I'll give while my wrath is still fresh ..... heed to it ... and never forget it ... Now suppose you are sitting on someone else's computer and checking out his huge collection of songs and have this particular inkiling to hear some of the sickest song of his collection (like Linkin Park) ... then DO NOT double click on the song file .... NEVER double click on a song file... I mean do you have any fucking idea that it takes a lot of time to come up with a decent playlist selecting songs from some 15-20 GB of music ? Whenever you want to hear some song .. right click on the name of the song ... there is this second option that says 'Enqueue in winamp' .. click on that option .. and when winamp opens ... scroll to the bottom of the playlist to the song .. doubleclick ... and hear it. But never doubleclick straightaway on the song file. Ok ?
(If anybody knows of a plugin to remember your playlist .. then please let me know ...)

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Some time backI saw this movie "Hazaaron Khwahishein Aisi" ... awesome movie ... and I saw the three LOTR movies (Special Extended edition) ... which were also awesome ... though not awesome in the same sense as the former was ... but it was still awesome ... specially the special effects in the war scene at Helms deep...
Then I am reading LOTR the book .... and am realizing that the movie people have changed almost all of the story ...
Book reminds me that I read this really amazing book God of Small Things ... which seemed a bit gloomy in the beginning , but in the end it turned out to be simply superb. I remember that I had started reading this book earlier , in class 8th maybe , when it had just won the booker. that time I had thought that it is a collection of small stories ... so I took out the smallest chapter and read it .... in the end I just returned the book to the library thinking that maybe incomprehensible books only won the booker. But I guess even if I would have read this book then ... I would have not like it ....

What else ?
Umm... ( I was actually thinking when I wrote that "umm .." .. I still am ... ummm.....) .. Ya .. I was going through some blogs right now when I read this poem by someone (Can be acknowledged if he wants to be) , which I am posting here without permission :
Twinkle Twinkle blasted star
I know who the hell you are
Up above in the goddamn sky
Just a ****ing firefly
Now the reason I posted this poem here is coz I think it rhymes really well ... which you'd realize if you sing it in tune ... and then it makes you laugh even harder ..

What else II ?
I don't fell like blogging anymore ... the thing that seemed so important to me just some months ago has lost all its charm and everyhting .. and so I don't feel like blogging anymore. The reason why I wrote that was coz I wanted to tell you all that I may not post again ever ... and maybe I may post tomorrow if I feel like it ... but at any rate I want you all to know ... that it was nice to know you all and it was nice to read your blogs (though I often did not read many of them) ... but some of them were, and are, real favorites ... and I'd continue reading them for a while ...

What else III ?
Concerning smoking .. I left it (for about 3 weeks) ... then smoked after my last exam (couldn't help it) .. then left it again ... then again smoked .. then left it ... and let's see when I smoke again (I desperately want one right now..). The thing is that before you start smoking ... there is this taboo in your mind ... so you don't smoke .... but after you have smoked some times ... there is nothing to stop you .. and then it is difficult to stop it .... so never try it in the first place ...

What else IV ? (No use trying to guess what these letters mean if you can't read roman numerals)
I was talking to a girl yesterday. She used to be in school with me . We were talking after a long time ... and admist the talk I realized that things have changed so much ... I mean ... we were in school some time back ... and now here I am asking about her new job , her salary , her weekly off etc. . Hmm... things have really changed ... I couldn't even imagine me thinking that I would one day consider her to be a really stupid girl while I daresay I had a thing or two for her during schooltime.

What else V ?
I went to this IITD rock thingy a few days back ... and it was like totally crap. First it was such an ordeal to get in. When I finally did get in ... I realized I had missed two bands .. out of four that were slated to play ... the other two ... one was Parikrama ... which was good ... the other was this band Bramha ,I think that was the name, ... whatever ... but they sucked big time .. I mean I almost wanted to kick the singer in his groin ... he spoilt it ... though the guitar and everyhting else was fine .. so I got really bored and was getting really desperate to leave the place when he pulled on a crowd favorite ... In the End by Linkin Park ... now I don't know why people like this song .... but I absolutely hate the song and the band ... and everytime I hear this band ... I feel like thrashing that rapper ... he sucks so much .... and you should see this other guy (who I presume does some sound mixing or something) .... he goes totally crazy as if the shit of the music is driving him into some kind of trance ... whatever ... the band is beyond me ...

What else VI ?
Well , nothing much. The End.

(Now that was a different ending ... tell you what .. I kinda enjoyed writing this post ... I may write more in near future ..).

And more

2005-08-27T22:26:00.000+05:30

Then he said, "I like cigarettes, Miss Taggart. I like to think of fire held in a man's hand. Fire, a dangerous force, tamed at his fingertips. I often wonder about the hours when a man sits alone, watching the smoke of a cigarette, thinking. I wonder what great things have come from such hours. When a man thinks, there is a spot of fire alive in his mind—and it is proper that he should have the burning point of a cigarette as his one expression."
-- Ayn Rand (Atlas Shrugged)

Well ... that quote in that book was kinda out of place ... you see ... while Ayn Rand in a way glorified independence of man , the state one is no longer dependent on any other ... she glorified the dependence on a cigarette .... why ? Coz she was a chain smoker. She still lived to be 94 though . The lines were good , anyways ....
The basic point in starting this post like this is that I started smoking. I always was facinated by it .... only recently I gave in finally ... not that I regret it ... but yes .. sometimes I do ...
It all started with me being drunk and trying a drag ... then some time later .. I smoked a full cigarette , just to know what it felt like ... and then I understood why so many people smoked .. and I started with it too ...
I really do not feel regret .... no that is not the right word ... I just feel kinda sad that I gave in to a dependency ...
But lets leave it at that ....

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I saw Sarkar ... awsome movie ... and finger to anyone who says it even resembles Godfather . The reason I didn't watch Sarkar earlier was coz of the comparison to Godfather. But it was so completely different and so fucking awsome. Godfather , I think is overrated though ...
And I saw My Wife's Murder .... strictly average movie. But Boman Irani , as always ... stands out ... he is one class act .

What else ?
College is completely boring ... and I long for holidays again (and it was the other way round in the holidays).
Eldest , second book of inheritence is out ... and I finally ordered the book at a price of Rs.611 ...

Ummm.... everything else that I had intended to write has simply vanished from my mind ... so ... that'll be it.

I'm back ...

2005-08-22T19:01:00.000+05:30

I guess I am back for some time. Hmm.. but we'll pretend that I was never gone (dare you compare this with the new Backstreet boys album title) ... well , college started again ... so I got sth to write about ....
Here ... this incidence some days back in college ...
Me and J went to the class ... and J got into some kinda verbal fight with someone ... some time later he called the other guy a "Sisterfucker" .... well . kinda normal ... no big deal ... happens all the time ... but this guy ... man he went crazy .... he started to hit J and then things got out of control .... J started to hit back . Things settled in some time. Apparently the other guy got all angry because of the cuss ... and the funny thing being .... he was trying to explain to his freinds how important it was to hit J in such circumstances. what an asshole ... I thought. But that was not it .... later I asked that guy what he'd do if there were a hundred people calling him a sisterfucker (calling him that was an understatement actually ... I would have said sth even worse ..) .. now I was expecting some sense to come to his mind hearing my question ... but his reply startled me .. "Mar jaaoonga , kat jaaoonga .. lekin behen ke baare mein kuchh nahin sunoonga .."(Will die but not hear anything against my sister).... man ... what a tool ... I wanted to lie at his feet and worship him for that "Dialogue" (filmy .. totally) ... and at the same time I wanted to kick his thing so hard to squish his balls into pulp .... I mean what kinda big asshole can one be .... What did he want to show ? Aadarsh ? Ethincs ? Total shit ... Of all the foolish people I have ever met ... he was one of the biggest ...
With writing all this I mean to convey one message ... if you have the same shit in you ... change it. And if you are one of them ... then this here ... just for you .. the next few lines .... siserfucker , motherfucker , fatherfucker , grandfatherfucker , grandmotherfucker , familyfucker , unvirsefucker (and everything else) .... DIE.

There ... I think I am feeling better now ...

New Post

2005-07-25T12:10:00.000+05:30

Life is boring , generally , these days. I just sit at home and read these ebooks on the computer. Not that that is boring , but it tends to make my neck ache after a while , and by evening , even my eyes hurt a bit. So , I leave the ebook after a while , to do some other things .... this is where the boredom starts. Coz there is not much to do. It is still one week before the college opens.
Meanwhile , it has again become fucking hot in Delhi , along with loads of humidity , which just compounds the problem. So you can't even go out.
The ebook I am reading these days is from this series called the Dragonlance series . This series has hoards of books (130 , I read somewhere ... but they are defnitely more than 25-30). I just finished with the first trilogy , the chronicles (first generation) :
-Dragons of the autumn twilight
-Dragons of the winter night
-Dragons of the spring dawning
Now I am beginning with the second trilogy ... the legend series .. about the twins. One of them being a magi ... how I love reading abut this character. Frankly , I have become a fantasy nut. It all started with this book called Eragon , whose pirated copy I finally managed to find and read. As soon as I finished with that .... I needed more dragons ... and then I finally stumbled upon this dragonlance series. Though things are a lot different in the two books ... but I love this series anyways.
Then I saw this movie 'Snatch'. Awsesome movie. Don't miss it .... I really loved this movie.
Ummm... what else ? I guess , that is about it. That pretty much wraps what I have been doing this week.
I wanted to write something more about fantasy and magic , and the hope they generate ... the whole thing I that I was thinking the other day ... but I just forgot whatever I was thinking. So ... chuck it ...
That will be all for this post.

Where have I been ?

2005-07-15T16:39:00.000+05:30

Its been some time since I last posted. I was not very busy , just that the thought of leaving blogging had come to my mind again. Why ? I dunno ...... like a friend said : "There's so much i have to do in life...if i ever do it,then there will be something to write about.right now i am saturated with it." But like always ... I talked myself into it again ...
So ... what do I write in this post ?

It has pretty much been a boring week. First there was this super crappy marrriage. Crappy by all standards. Lousy food , no chicken .. and no Daru. How useless can a marriage get ? And it was so fucking hot ... I was half drowned in sweat by the time I reached the AC hall inside. At last it ended .. and I came back to Delhi.

I saw this movie called 'Eyes wide shut'. Remember ? Stanley Kubriks last movie ? The one with loads of sex in it ... Nicole Kidman and Tom Cruise ... , so I saw it ... and couldn't make heads or tails of it .... it ended so suddenly .. had I not seen the casting .. I would have never believed that the movie was complete. Well .. there are some things that are made for the really intelligent beings .. with everything having meanings in layers. I can't really bother to even think for their meaning ... the reason I used to really like Govinda type movies ... no brain required to see them ... and even if you start seeing them 1.5 hrs after the movie started ... you'll understand every bit of the movie ... and there is plenty of laughter.
I also saw Shawshank Redemption ... amazing movie.

I started with a Grisham (The Partner).

Umm... what else ..
Ya ... got drinking again yesterday. And while at the peak of the high ... I had the following conversation with one of my friend (three of us were there) :
N : "You remember I told you about this professor who became schizophrenic ?"
Me : "Ya"
N : "You know who he is ?"
Me : "No"
N : "He is my dad."
( And then he began to cry. And believe me ... I was stunned ... I didn't know what to say for some time. )
N : "You know ... everybody used to laugh at him. They used to make fun of him .. and laughed at me too. I got admission in the same university he taught .. and used to attend his each class ... I was the only one .. alone .. I sent my mother and siblings away. I used to keep awake with him for all those nights .. and used to talk to him. Only I know how I got through those two years. But I am not crying because I feel weak. It's just that when I remember those two years ..."
Me : (Knowing that its no use sympathising with him) "How is he now ?"
N : "He is ok now. You know why I came into engineering ? Somebody told my father that I would become no one .. a failiure. I decided that day ... and so I left that course mid-way. These tears only make me more determined." (Long Pause) "And people ask me why do I keep so alone .."

You know you had to be there to realize the magnitude of pain flowing through the surrounding space. Even I felt like crying ..

2005-07-08T21:32:00.000+05:30

DOS is a really nice thing. It may be fucking old ... but at least it has the sense to leave you alone and not ask you many questions ... or be very intelligent like the windows and try to intervene in everything that a sane person wants to do on his computer. They made nice things back then.
Then Windows happened.

Just Another Post

2005-07-07T14:22:00.000+05:30

I have come to a conclusion. Blogs .. like people, have a life. They live , they attain glory , and they die. Some live forever , some can barely make it past one post , but they all have a definite life span.
People who start with blogs have loads of ideas when they start. Then they start visiting other blogs .. and then the comments. They present their thoughts .. and sculpt another personality virtually. They begin enjoying it .. and then it seems really fine. But after sometime ... they go blank. Suddenly it becomes a burden to write anything else. Or their virtual Personality starts to look really virtual .. far away from reality. Some people then just leave their blogs , others take a long break ... and others kill their blogs.
And it is not about them only ... I have thought about this so many times myself. I have thought about killing my blog so many times ... but I have come to depend on it so much. Maybe .. one day I may be able to leave blogging ... I definitely have been blank for some time now.
Three people whose blog I used to read often , pulled the plug off their blog recently. Maybe they'd get back some day. Maybe they won't.
I don't know where I am heading with writing all of this .. but it is kinda sad you know .... like when a long time freind departs.
Anyways ... things move on ... always did.

Not bored anymore

2005-07-06T21:29:00.000+05:30

I didn't get bored these past three days. Not even once.
Went to Ambala to meet some cousins , and then went off to Shimla from there. It was raining all the way .. and it was raining in Shimla too. We could only get one evening out on the mall road ... rest was spent in the hotel room. The rains just didn't stop. So we returned in a day. But it was nice. Boozed again. This cousin of mine got a Johnny Walker Red Label. The night was spent emptying the bottle. Finally we did.
There was this cousin who started crying after having lots of drink (how I hate people doing it). Then there was this other cousin from Delhi , who drank a trifle too much , and got embarassed when her head reeled under a bacardi. But it was real fun. We sat there talking about everything from what is wrong in India to bitching about people and all. Drunken talk mainly.
Hills become really beautiful in the rains. Loved it there. But it is good to be back in Delhi.
Couldn't check the blogs there .. those people used IE that stores all the adresses by default .. and I didn't want them to see this blog. Ofcourse I could have deleted that list .. but it was their comp .. and they used that list .. so I couldn't. Anyways ... now I am back.
Umm.. what else ? Had planned a big post this time ... but now I can't remember a thing I had intended to write.
Ya .. I read this book called Eragon. On Dragons and all. Awsome book ... just can't wait for the second part. Now I am reading a JHC (It is called : Do me a favour , Drop Dead). Picked this one because this one was the only one without a raunchy photograph on its cover.
Umm...
Nothing else to post about. Over and out.

Daru , Palika and Spirits

2005-06-29T13:26:00.000+05:30

Here's another 'what's new' post ...

I finally drank yesterday .... drank to my hearts content ... unlike in pubs where you have to drink to a limit coz there is a home you got to return to and you are driving ... this time we were drinking in a hotel room .. some of my cousins had come over ...
They got this Smirn-off citrus yesterday ... nice flavour ....

Other things .. I went to Palika again yesterday ... and like a lot of times ... all the MP3 shops were closed for a week or so due to raids by police and all. I bet all of them are mixed up ... the CD people and the police ... it's just that they close down temprorily to pacify someone high up.
Went to CP then ... and I found out that Pizza Hut people have started serving beer too ... Fosters ... had some of that too ... but I am not much of a beer drinker ... beer makes you fat .. and doesn't even give a big high ... so I always prefer Vodka/whisky etc. ..
What else ? Umm... Ya ... I spotted this shop in Palika selling Guitar learning videos .. along with similar videos for drums , flutes , etc. and then other videos had judo-karate instructions .. and then there were loads of music videos and concerts .. man .. this market never ceases to amaze me .. but I didn't get anything from that shop ... 375 for one fucking CD ? ... I'd rather download it from the net ..

And .. what else ?
I downloaded these movies from the net :
Shawshank Redemption
Snatch
Taxi Driver
Dr Strangelove or : How not to worry and love the bomb
Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind

And wanted to download My cousin Vinny .. couldn't find it ..
Then I downloaded this video of this song called Keine Lust by Rammstein. This group sings in German , but they rock. Nice video ... all dressed like really fat people and head banging and all ..

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Day before yesterday .. it was raining all day here .. lovely weather ... I went to college for that project ... but couldn't just sit inside the lab .. so the three of us came out and sat there enjoying the fine weather. I was there , then that chick I talked about in one of the earlier posts , and there was another freind. We got talking on drinking and smokes. The talk shifted to dope. We were discussing how does it feel like after a whiff of Marijuana. Now I haven't ever tried them .. nor my freind .. that girl had tried it .. so she was telling us about the high and all. I made up my mind to try it once ... but again .. later that day I thought against it. Then we got talking on scary movies .. from where the talks drifted to planchette (I had to do a lot of googling to get this word right ..) .. then we sat there talking about planchette ... now I had always considered it a story till one of my very fast freinds told me he had witnessed it ... I have never witnessed it myself ... but I would love to ... then that chick began explaining the intricacies and the people she knew who practiced witch craft and occults etc.... and evil spirits and all ..... it was quite funny you know ... and it was raining all the time ..

Another new post ...

2005-06-26T03:29:00.000+05:30

So .. lets see ...

What's new ?
TATA Indcom people finally changed my connection to an unlimited one .. and my computer has been ON ever since. I downloaded some videos , loads of music and I am now downloading some movies ... where will the world be without P2P ?

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Anyways .... I have decided to stop updating ... what I am writing here no longer holds any meaning to me .. it is just that since the space is to be updated in a matter of some days, that I am updating it ... and that is not how it should be ..
I had started blogging for a specific purpose , back in December last year ... but lets leave the purpose ... lets concentrate on the fact that I no longer have anything to update this blog with ... I can't write anything like poetry , stories or anything like that .. I can only read some of them and admire them , though probably understanding very little of it. The other thing being that I can't write anything else too .. thought that this will pass .. but it doesn't ... I am pretty much blank ... anything I write here now will be only forced ... and that is not how good things are written ... at least I can never write anything good when I want to write "something". Whatever I have written ... most of the posts ... they were not composed staring at the screen .. they were composed in my mind .. the outine of the post and everything. And now when I sit down to write down a post , I can't seem to write anything ... I mean I can write a lot of things .. but then I'll fly off at tangents ,. just not concentrating on the post ... and then what will take shape will be a mess of a post .. and I don't want that ... I am sitting at home these days so I can't even update it with 'What I did today' kinda posts .. I hate writing such stuff anyways ... there is no other thing I want to write just now ... (And fuck .. I have written so much already ... having nothing to write ? ... but all this is just explaining the situation).

But what's the use of writing all this ?
I'll update in a few days with another post stating the new ways I got bored in ... just for the heck of it .. and just for them comments ... and just for killing some time ...

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I can write a 'bored 3' now ... coz I am still bored ... It is 3 in the night and I can't sleep .. and there is no one online ... so I am all the more bored .. chat on Yahoo sucks ...
I feel like doing nothing in particular ..

Hmmm... I think I'll read a book then ... finish off with this one .. and hope that the next one is good enough ...
k .... Goodnight ..

Bored 2

2005-06-22T22:11:00.000+05:30

I was getting really bored .. so I thought that maybe writing a post will help me .. then I'll wait for the comments ..
So here goes another post .. pretty random and boring .... but if you have read uptill this point ( X <-- This point , X marks the spot) , then read on furthur ...
Anyways .. I have nothing specific to write in this post ...
Weather is a killer .. man the heat in Delhi .. it got a bit like rain in the evening .. but the weather is so god damn bad ... and to top that .. I have to go to fucking markets to shop for the upcoming marriage ... how much crap can a person bear ? First I hate marriage ceremonies .. and then I hate shopping .. and you can't even wear a suit in this fucking heat ...
Then I have not had a drop of alcohol since the colleges closed .. I feel so .. ummm ... 'Daru-less' ..
And I am getting bored ...

And .. and .. and .. ummm.... I dunno .. nothing else .... got up today, brushed my teeth , took shit , took a bath ... umm.. got bored ... got more bored ... and will go off to sleep in some time ...

Was planning to post some kinda funny pic .. but I can't remember which pic was it that I had thought of posting ...
In other things ... Sigma Protocol is not a very great book ... but I got hold of a copy of Eragon today .. will read that next ...
Oh God .. I have written so much crap .. but that is what happens when you get bored and you get a broadband connection ...

Ok ... yippetty yoppetty yippetty .. that's all folks ...

Bored

2005-06-20T15:27:00.000+05:30

I'm fucking bored. Nothing to do ... no where to go ... no money left to spend .... wtf do I do ?
I got a broadband connection the day before .. and believe me ... I feel even more bored now then I was before with my dial-up.
So I decided to explore some new blogs yesterday ... but it got really boring after a while ... and then I tried the chat scene on Yahoo .... and man does it suck ... there are shit loads of ass holes who come up there to chat with fuckingly stupid alias names that have all kinds of crappy adjectives like cute , creative , hot etc. ... with loads of underscores seperating them ... screaming out that they are basically everything but that .... I got pretty fed up and left the chat rooms. It was 4 in the night that time ... so I again went to all the blogs ... and everyone gets so damn lazy on a weekend .. no body bothers to update ... and then there are people who bring down their comment boxes ..
I tried Launch cast ... it is quite nice ... loved a few tracks ...
Ayways ... then I went off to sleep ..
Went to the college today .. and everybody but the stupid prof turned up .. so I came back ... and now I am again bored ...
Monday today ... even the CD shops are closed so I couldn't even get a movie.

I am listening to system of a down ... they are pretty awsome .. downloaded some of their videos ... good ones ... hear it if you like a bit of hard rock ... ain't very hard though ..
I also heard songs from this movie called Tajmahal (yet to be released) ... I really liked two of the songs ... hear them if you like ...... umm... I dunno . Most of the people around me didn't like it .. so it is up to you ... I really loved one of the tracks ...

In other things .. I finally left Atlas Shrugged and started with a new one .... Ludlum.

And ... ummmm..... nothing else ....
keep updating ... so will I ...

New Post

2005-06-17T17:51:00.000+05:30

Update : (Sorry I am pretty blank to think of any other method to start this post)

Another close , crappy marriage coming up. This will not be as big an affair as some of the previous marriages I attended , since this is on my fathers side and these people do not have much money. Also this means that there will be no liquor :( .
These relaties came over to discuss some matters with my parents and I had to sit along yesterday. And again I get this sick feeling about marriage ceremonies. I mean .. get a load of this ... my mother and my aunt were discussing the ceremonies and to my surprise none was sure of the right way a particular ceremony is held. So they called up some old people to ask about the crap and then made sure of the ceremonies that have to take place. I happened to ask about the need for these ceremonies when nobody was sure about them .... "Everything should go according to customs. You don't know .. people tend to cath the smallest flaw in these ceremonies" .. fuck the ceremonies and fuck the people.
So this will be another 4-5 days of hell for me.

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I have been thinking lately the importance of piracy in my life. Pirated books , movies, software, music and loads of other stuff. Where would I be without piracy ?
I went to the mother of all piracy markets - Palika Bazaar, the day before. And you have to go there yourself to believe it. That is one place that has all the pirated techno stuff under one roof. And the way that market has developed is amazing .. these people have educated themselves with the time. So when I go there and tell them to give me an AC/DC CD , they don't look blank, they don't look surprised ... they just take out the CD from their vast collections. And they also have all kinds of posters .. high quality ones ... football and rock .. and rock means serious rock and metal stuff like Pantera and slipknot (some of them still think that Britney and Backstreet boys do rock ... but that'll pass too ..). And then there were good quality football jerseys (though I hate wearing one .. but some freind was interested) , concert videos and all kinds of techno stuff like MP3 players , 4.1/5.1 speaker systems and other things. And to my surprise I even saw something that looked like a dildo .. though I could be wrong .. but I seriously don't think I am. Now dildos ain't a very big thing .. but considering that this is India .. well .. I dunno ... maybe I am not updated with the latest.

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In other things .. I happen to turn 20 tomorrow (Ya ya .. thanks and all that) .. which means that I'll be recieving a lot of cards and other such worthless stuff. Now what I hate about cards is that they do not serve any purpose ... why send a card ?.. why don't you send me those 20 bucks instead .. at least I'll collect all the card money , have some beer and thank you in my heart. But cards ... are such meaingless stuff. Only people that benifit out these cards are the super big thieves that work at the international level under the name of Archies . They print meaningless stuff on a paper and sell it. People go out buying them and then they gift it to someone. Now what I don't understand is .. what do I do with these cards after I have read them once ? I have seen people collecting cards gifted to them ... but what for ? I find them a totally useless thing. And same for other Archie stuff. Photo frames and other crappy stuff you can fill your table top with .. pretty useless .. so I generally go for the "cash" option whenever some sensible person chooses to ask me what I want for my birthday.

New Post

2005-06-14T00:23:00.000+05:30

I have nothing much to write about .. and inspired by MWNN's blog (no offence intended ... inspired does not mean the way bollywood films are inspired from hollywood ... it is more like one is inspired by Shakespere to start writing ;) ).. I am posting whatever that comes up in my mind ... read it if you got nothing else to do ...

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I think I'll leave Atlas Shrugged for now .. it is getting too damn boring .. I can't help it ... it is like an overdose of Ayn Rand ... to much heroism ... so I'll start with "One flew over Cuckoos nest" now. Or maybe "The Godfather".

Saw Pulp Fiction yesterday (yes , all these years I never saw it) ... and man this what a movie should be like ... perfect ... wow ... this movie has become my all time favorite ... I've seen it thrice already . It is such an awesome movie .. it has changed my benchmarks for rating movies ... Seen it ?

"The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides with the iniquities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he who in the name of charity and good will shepherd the weak through the valley of darkness, for he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon those with great vengeance and with furious anger those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know that my name is the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon thee." (Don't give it a thought if you haven't seen the movie)
So that one dialogue was repeated around 3 times by Samuel Jackson in the movie ... and I really loved the way he said it.
This ..... ummm .......... nothing.

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More .... I just saw Hitch , and I don't know why people liked it so much ... it was so mushy ... the chick was good though. But well ... I didn't like the movie very much. Tell you what ... I just don't have taste for these kinda movies .. so I don't generally like them. I just got too damn bored seeing it. You don't think that it was somewhat cliched ? Well .. I did ... dunno why ?

Next probably I'll post on "The Godfather" , the movie.

This week

2005-06-10T19:40:00.000+05:30

I saw Parineeta today and it was what I had expected. Crap. Seeing this movie I felt that the only difference between this movie and the olden movies that were crap was that these days they have such a wonderful feel to a movie. I mean this movie had a particular colour tone all over the movie , details were looked after in recreating 1962 ... but the story was such a big pile of crap. And then Saif Ali Khan uprooted a marble fountain and broke open a wall in the end. I didn't like the chick too. So I would rate the movie 1/5. Thankgod I spent only 50 bucks on the shit.
Anyways , that was about this movie I saw. In other things I've been doing lately ... I've been reading Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand and I've been working on a project in college.
Atlas Shrugged is starting to bore me out and I am still not done with the first part. But the whole book seems so similar ... there are always two types of people - the heros and the secondhanders. The heros always keep a straight face , love working , 'smile easily' at everything , 'laugh noiselessly' , and generally give shit about the other group , the second-handers. Everyone in the other groups is always concerned about each other and always tries to glorify values like humanity and other crap. Fountainhead made an excellent read , but this is like an overdose. Still I'm reading it , god knows why (and for this Ayn Rand will call me a perfect Secondhander or a depraved human being).
Then there is this project I am doing in the college. The project in itself is interesting. But that is not what I want to write about. There is this average-chick who is working with me. She is the one I intend to write about.
Well she is one of those chicks who gets popular for mysterious reasons (can only happen in an engineering college). Now I don't have any problems in her being popular , but the airs .. God .. But anyways , when she is not boring you with her show off , she is pretty interesting to be with. Good things being that she smokes , drinks , listens to heavy metal and cusses out loud (COL) in hindi ... preety cool huh ? But wait till you've been with her for sometime .. and then everything seems some kinda show off. When she cusses , she generally enjoys hearing others gape in surprise hearing a girl cuss (though I don't know what's the big deal). Then she goes on and on about her boyfreinds and her ex boyfreinds and other crap of similar nature which kinda starts to drill a hole through my mind and I have to change the topic quickly. But otherwise she is a decent chick to hang out with. She gave me a CD today and told me not to open a particular folder. The folder was named porn ... did she expect me not to open it ? Well .. so this first clip was pretty useless .. the second one was good. It was just the way I like it. A woman who did not look like an overworked whore (and was beautiful too) , nice place they had for screwing, nice print , great music and they started off passionately .. I hate the porn films which start from a guy humping a girl straight away. So , the second clip was good ...
In other things ... well ...... there are no other things .. it is vacation time and it is generally eventless (specially when you go nearly broke at the start of the month) .. so .. I am just looking forward to sleeping and reading this weekend .

2005-06-03T23:59:00.000+05:30

This post can get a bit sad.

I want to write something really beautiful.
I can't write anything remotely beautiful.
Mockery is my forte .. and I'm tired of it, not on the blog, elsewhere.
I'm tired of joking around laughing everything out.
I'm tired of not performing.
I want to drink a lot.
I am tired of engineering.
Why should I post this crap ?
She started blogging.
She writes so beautifully .. I may fall for her again.
This other chick swears and smokes .. great to hang out with.
I want to play the guitar really fast. So fast that ..
What is life ?
Who is John Galt ?
I don't know what exactly I want to do.
And this life ?
What lies ahead ?
A vortex of thoughts.

No don't comment and tell me to cheer up ..
I'll be ok tomorrow.

Nah .. it didn't get sad.

Statutory Warning ?

2005-05-31T16:44:00.000+05:30

Every cigarette box carries this statutory warning : Cigarette smoking is injurious to health. Ever heard of one person who gave up smoking because of the warning ? What do they think ... will people go something like "Oops .. cigarette smoking is injurious to health .. shit .. I gotta quit smoking." .. ? Tell you what .. everyone who is good enough to read that warning does not need it .. he/she knows that it is harmful. It is just that those who can not read this warning may need them .. but then what is the use to write warnings for them ? They can't see much difference between the marlboro man or the warning .. except that one looks recognizable ...
Then there was this recent debate (Delhi Times , some months back) that cigarette boxes should carry bigger warning signs .. like in other countries .. but I think it is no use having the warning .. nobody ever reads what is written on the box .. the color and design of the box confirms the brand .. that is all what people see ... (ofcourse I read the warning that is why I am writing this article .. and ofcourse you read it t.. that is why you know what I am talking about .. but does it ever make a difference weather it was written or not ?)
A good idea is to include pornographic pictures/dirty jokes on the box too .. that ways at least 50% of the people will see the box .. and at least 50% of them will then read the warning .. good idea ? So elevate me to the post of Tobacco minister or whoever decides this .. I'll then have other innovative ideas like this and then I'll make this country a good place to live in ... jai hind ... (And I'll make good use of one of those red light VIP cars given to me.. that zip through the traffic .. )
So all warnings should be removed from the boxes (since no one will like my other suggestion) and the boxes should be left blank .. that will save so much ink (owing to the amount of cigarette boxes produced per year .. must be in billions .. ) .. and that will save so many trees or some other naural resource ..
But I guess I am the only one concerned about the country and the environment ..

2005-05-30T14:34:00.000+05:30

"A blog is as good as its last post"

Read this on a blog when I started blogging . That was the day I started reading the second last post too.

Cultural Shit

2005-05-29T12:58:00.000+05:30

I have been playing a lot of guitar lately and I really feel sad that all this time I didn't learn much on my accoustic guitar. I mean .. it's like 6 years since I have an accoustic .. and I learnt as much as a slow begginer would learn in ... say 6 months ? I mean .. such a waste ..
And now that I remember ... they used to teach us nothing in school. Not that my school was bad .. but there was this whole cultural shit that always comes on from God knows where. So , our instrumental teacher used to be a sitar player who taught us to play Sa Re Ga Ma and Ragas. I was taught to play the guitar on one string .. and I wondered when do people use the rest of the 5 .. ok ... my school really sucked at this .... but then I don't understand why do we give so much importance to the culture thing. I mean .. what is culture ? A way of living that an era of people invented some time back ? Right ... then why do we want to adopt it right now ? I mean ... if everybody was following cultures all this time .. then we would have had Harappan culture now ... Right ?
I think everybody should be free to do what he she wants to do ..
And ... when I say cultural shit ... I do not mean to say that all this Indian Classical and all that is bad ... what I want to say is that harping about culture and forcing people to follow it is . As for Indian classical music is concerned .. I think it is wonderful .. I really love the songs with classical touch and I think singing it does wonders to your voice. But please .. let me do what I want to ...
In the college .. my principal is a big time Indian Culture freak .. so we have all these spic macay programs in the college. I don't mind them .. infact .. I got to hear Pt. Hari Prasad Chaurasiya through one of these (and he is wonderful) .. but then .. what happens is .. he'll give huge sponsorship for the Spic Macay programs .. and shit if we want to do something like a rock competition or sth. Not only that ... he would actually put on strong terms like time limits and all that on any such programs in the college .. now this is shit. Like .. why ?

2005-05-25T00:19:00.000+05:30

Bomb blasts hit two theatres in Delhi. Both the halls were showing Sunny Deol's 'Jo Bole Sonihal" ... one mans crusade against presumably everyone who happens to say anything against India/Indians ..
There have been lots of speculation as to who was responsible for the blast .. it could be the terrorists (always responsible for all the blasts .. life is a huge Diwali for them) , it could be one of the million other groups who love to go kaboom now and then .. but I'd say it was a terribly bored viewer who decided to bomb the halls so that such kind of crap does not hit the halls again.
So the people who got realy bored seeing the movie , went to the loo .. and went kaboom. Another reason one should never go out to see such crap.
In the same incident .. I saw Aaj Tak , the news channel cover the thing up. The reporter who was covering it up almost went to the ICU with a person who was being taken to the hospital for some first aid. The reporter was asking all kinds of questions .. like where you were when the bomb happned to blast (since he was the only one there who didn't know that the blast happned in the loo) .. then they were interviewing this other person who had all his hair burnt and all that .. One of the questions was :
"What movie were you watching ?"
"This movie starring Dharaminder's son .."
C'mon .. can't you see the posters .. I mean first the reporter didn't know where the blast took place , and then he doesn't know which movie was playing. For finding the first piece of info , he followed a patient to the casuality ward tormenting him like hell .. and for the second ... well he could have picked up a newspaper or asked someone else , since he was the only one who didn't know which movie was playing ... and they say that Aaj Tak is the 'Sabse tez channel'
My take on all this is ... never go out to watch this kinda crap. You never know ..