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Then he said, "I like cigarettes, Miss Taggart. I like to think of fire held in a man's hand. Fire, a dangerous force, tamed at his fingertips. I often wonder about the hours when a man sits alone, watching the smoke of a cigarette, thinking. I wonder what great things have come from such hours. When a man thinks, there is a spot of fire alive in his mind—and it is proper that he should have the burning point of a cigarette as his one expression."
-- Ayn Rand (Atlas Shrugged)

Well ... that quote in that book was kinda out of place ... you see ... while Ayn Rand in a way glorified independence of man , the state one is no longer dependent on any other ... she glorified the dependence on a cigarette .... why ? Coz she was a chain smoker. She still lived to be 94 though . The lines were good , anyways ....
The basic point in starting this post like this is that I started smoking. I always was facinated by it .... only recently I gave in finally ... not that I regret it ... but yes .. sometimes I do ...
It all started with me being drunk and trying a drag ... then some time later .. I smoked a full cigarette , just to know what it felt like ... and then I understood why so many people smoked .. and I started with it too ...
I really do not feel regret .... no that is not the right word ... I just feel kinda sad that I gave in to a dependency ...
But lets leave it at that ....

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I saw Sarkar ... awsome movie ... and finger to anyone who says it even resembles Godfather . The reason I didn't watch Sarkar earlier was coz of the comparison to Godfather. But it was so completely different and so fucking awsome. Godfather , I think is overrated though ...
And I saw My Wife's Murder .... strictly average movie. But Boman Irani , as always ... stands out ... he is one class act .

What else ?
College is completely boring ... and I long for holidays again (and it was the other way round in the holidays).
Eldest , second book of inheritence is out ... and I finally ordered the book at a price of Rs.611 ...

Ummm.... everything else that I had intended to write has simply vanished from my mind ... so ... that'll be it.

I'm back ...

I guess I am back for some time. Hmm.. but we'll pretend that I was never gone (dare you compare this with the new Backstreet boys album title) ... well , college started again ... so I got sth to write about ....
Here ... this incidence some days back in college ...
Me and J went to the class ... and J got into some kinda verbal fight with someone ... some time later he called the other guy a "Sisterfucker" .... well . kinda normal ... no big deal ... happens all the time ... but this guy ... man he went crazy .... he started to hit J and then things got out of control .... J started to hit back . Things settled in some time. Apparently the other guy got all angry because of the cuss ... and the funny thing being .... he was trying to explain to his freinds how important it was to hit J in such circumstances. what an asshole ... I thought. But that was not it .... later I asked that guy what he'd do if there were a hundred people calling him a sisterfucker (calling him that was an understatement actually ... I would have said sth even worse ..) .. now I was expecting some sense to come to his mind hearing my question ... but his reply startled me .. "Mar jaaoonga , kat jaaoonga .. lekin behen ke baare mein kuchh nahin sunoonga .."(Will die but not hear anything against my sister).... man ... what a tool ... I wanted to lie at his feet and worship him for that "Dialogue" (filmy .. totally) ... and at the same time I wanted to kick his thing so hard to squish his balls into pulp .... I mean what kinda big asshole can one be .... What did he want to show ? Aadarsh ? Ethincs ? Total shit ... Of all the foolish people I have ever met ... he was one of the biggest ...
With writing all this I mean to convey one message ... if you have the same shit in you ... change it. And if you are one of them ... then this here ... just for you .. the next few lines .... siserfucker , motherfucker , fatherfucker , grandfatherfucker , grandmotherfucker , familyfucker , unvirsefucker (and everything else) .... DIE.

There ... I think I am feeling better now ...